well, that was interesting

[tanrinia]

(if any of you have had a similar experience, please chime in :)

so, i went outside to the rock after lunch for my post-lunch meditation attempt. i'm enjoying them even when i don't really accomplish anything meditation wise, and it'll be sad when school starts again and there are throngs of barely post-adolescent people meandering loudly about, ("what's crazy dr. k doing?")...not to mention the very LOW likelihood i'll be wanting to sit my butt in the snow against an ice covered rock...but i digress...

anyway, sat down, breathed, attempted the 9 breaths meditation. i've got the breathing down (4 in 4 out) pretty well, now, so i'm just starting to try for some simple visualizations. i seem to be able to do it okay when other folks lead it, so now it's just leading it meself.

anyway, whether its the full belly, or the sound of workers, but i can't really do it at all, so i decide on just some random musing. i talk to our late vp academic affairs, who is posthumously at the heart of a small scandal, and consequently not around to defend himself :/ there's a tree planted in his honor directly across from where i sit.

then i start thinking of Woden, what with it being Woden's Day and all. i "hadn't had time" for a morning hail, which i know is a lie...i've come to the conclusion that there is plenty of time for what i want to do, i just need to actually do it and not sit on the couch (or in front of the computer typing LJ updates :D ) thinking/writing about it. anyway, i'm trying to see if i can write a song "odin on the tree for nine days...." it's not working of course. i also enter the circular rat race of "i need to do X, but first i need to do Y and i haven't done Z for so long, i wish i 'had more time.' "

it is of course at this point that i hear a very clear voice saying "if i can hang on a tree for nine days, you can do what you need to get done."

[note: i don't ever have visions or anything. whenever i believe i am experiencing divinity, it is in this way...a voice or thought from out of the blue. of course, i could also be in the beginning stages of dementia, but i like the divine intervention theory better.]

that startles me out of my self-pity-time-trap daydream....whoa.

dammit...it's kinda fading now...something along the lines of "just shut up and do it." oh....uh, okay....yes sir!!! each excuse is met with 'if i can hang on a tree for nine days, you can do something for 15 minutes"

[the juxtaposition of my religion and my flylady cult is kinda bizarre, i know...]

i believe at one point one of the things i wanted to have more time for was this whole meditation thing, which the response was "You need practice. Until you get it, you will get nothing else. If I can hang on a tree...(etc.)"

so, (if it's not too flaky sounding) i believe i have been spoken to...and given a task. this is good...right?

Comments

[duriyah.livejournal.com]

IMO, yes, you have been Spoken To, yes you have been given a task, and yes this is a good thing. Inanna used to talk to me when I was in the shower. I think auditory “visions” are probably the easiest to receive, especially for someone who normally does not have visions. In my experience, the visions that come unexpectedly (rather than being sought after) are the strongest and most meaningful.

[tanrinia]

folks may have spoken to me in the shower, but i probably didn't hear them what with the radio and me and the cat singing along in harmony :)

[triskele.livejournal.com]

I believe you've been spoken to.

But I did nearly pee my pants with the flylady thrown in there!

[tanrinia]

hehehe i know!

of course, 'twas one of the things i was obsessing upon at the time, so it makes sense....but still :D

[triskele.livejournal.com]

Sure it makes sense, but the mixture = small brain implosion

[smithing-chick.livejournal.com]

The Morrigan likes to do that to me, too. Frequently it's "Just get off your ass & di it, would you?"

[bloodlikerain.livejournal.com]

hrm. i've had deities speak to me. usually it was good. sometimes their words have been harsh.

but i thnk it your sit it was a good thing.

[romandruid.livejournal.com]

i believe i have been spoken to...and given a task. this is good...right?

I'd say, yeah, you were spoken to... it's neither good nor bad; it is. Just be grateful He didn't threaten to shove you into the fire if you didn't start paying attention. (Um... maybe that was before I met you.)

[tanrinia]

shoved in fire? what's the story there, eh? :)

since this was the first thwap, i figure there's no threats involved yet. my hesitation upon calling it good was the relationship others (*ahem* walkyrja *ahem*) have with himself does not always sound...how shall i say....'pleasant?'

i definitely need to hear the fire story :)

[smithing-chick.livejournal.com]

"Just be grateful He didn't threaten to shove you into the fire if you didn't start paying attention"

Or blind you in one eye, which happened to someone I know.

[tanrinia]

hehe...i think she was talking about a specific instance involving her though :)

[romandruid.livejournal.com]

How do you think I got to be Preceptor? I was waffling and so the decision was made for me -- do it or... there's the fire. (I've dreaded the omen part of ritual ever since...)